I’m having a bit of a love hate relationship with food at the minute…
In recent weeks I’ve been low on my calorie intake averaging around 1900kcals a day…
You might be thinking how the hell is that low?! Well for me it’s 600kcals a day under what my body needs…
And before you say under breath that I must have a fast metabolism, that’s bollocks too…
A metabolism is something that’s thrown around far too often by those who aren’t losing weight “oh I’ve got a slow metabolism I can’t lose weight”… Nope
The truth is that you’re over eating and not nearly active enough… Unless of course you have a medical issue please don’t use this as an excuse….
I digress, again, nothing new there really… Anyway… I’m now under 9 stone, I’m 5 foot 8 and I know that I am underweight despite the fact I’m in quite good shape…
I know that not eating enough will affect my training, it will affect my mindset I will become lethargic, angry and sad…
I need to sort it out but food is just irritating me… The only thing I’m interested in eating during the week is a madras on a Friday night.
I’m scoffing biscuits because they’re quick and easy but the joy of the taste has gone… It’s quite saddening really as I do generally love my food (as long as it isn’t green)…
What really really pisses me off though is that I met up with a family member the other day, I was told I looked drawn in at the face which made me look older
I looked tired and ill and far too skinny…
I grabbed a bottle of lucozade and the response “that’s just full of sugar man go get some decent food”…
Hang on a minute oh smarter than smart nutrition guru…
I’m struggling to eat a lot of food so I’m opting for higher calorie snack type options to get some extra calories in so I don’t lose any more weight…
But I shouldn’t do that because it’s full of sugar???!!! Fuck me… The world has gone nuts…
The reality is that at the minute the important thing to me is getting my calories up so that my body doesn’t go into decline and my head doesn’t crumble…
I have been feeling guilty for how much crap I’ve been having…
Feeling guilty that I’m a coach and should be leading by example…
Feeling guilty and that others are judging me for it…
Well… I’ve had a little head shake to myself and making sure I get my calories in are waaaay more important than what other people think, waaaaay more important than “clean eating”…
And you know what, leading by example, I’m still doing that…
So many people I’ve encountered have become so scared of food and feel that they must deprive deprive deprive and their heads end up in the shed and they get demotivated because they don’t have their comforts, or they do have them and it’s the end of the world… It’s not…
So, you are likely to find me eating “unhealthy” foods… But at the minute my aim is to get the calories in and not lose any more weight…
I personally think that this is more important than getting stuck on “clean” eating…
S x
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